Discipline

 Discipline. At first I thought about this word and concept in regards to my parents disciplining me, but there is also discipline in being consistent in actions. I need to have discipline and spend time with Jesus by reading the Bible, because I need to renew my mind. And I love finding strength in His Word.

Beloved You Are Mine

You are beautiful in my sight
In You my daughter I delight
Your shape, your eyes, I formed it all
With gentle hands and a large smile
I carefully knit you for a while
My hands fell over you as I embraced you
I sang beautifully over you,
"You are precious my child, my child."

I named You and called You

I swept you out of darkness into My marvelous light

To reach the world with your beautiful bright light

As I draw you near I whisper in Your ear,

 "Beloved You are Mine."

His Promise

Jesus I know that you have not forsaken me. Your Word says you will never leave me nor forsake me. Thank you that the word speaks light and truth into every dark place, every thought that I have that I hold onto that I don't share with you, every hurt and pain, every lie from Satan, every discouraging word heard..

Writing Is a Form of Worship

     When I was fifteen years old I brought a journal to Wednesday night bible study. That night while I was sitting on the couch listening to our youth pastor teach I started writing things down as she spoke. I remember being so in awe of the idea of taking down notes while she was talking. I was writing down what I was learning and the thoughts that were coming to my mind. I remember thinking and saying to myself, "Wow, Bev, you've got to do this more often, this was so awesome!". What I did not know at that moment was that those "thoughts," were actually lessons that the Holy Spirit was teaching me.            

    Several years later when I was in college I began bringing my journal to campus crusade for Christ weekly meetings. And I later began writing during my quiet times. I never realized how much pf an impact writing was having in my life. When I was writing I was addressing my pain and hurt, I was receiving healing, I was communicating with the Lord and the He was speaking to me, I was being ministered to while I was writing. It is the coolest thing ever!
    The Lord has been teaching me so much about writing, my relationship with Him, and about worship.
    "I have a well inside of me, we all do. We all have this well inside of us, it is our job and our responsibility to keep it full, full does not mean equal to the tum, full equals overflowing, there is a constant pouring in and a constant pouring out. And whatever I gotta do to keep that well filled, that's what I'm gonna do. " -Kim Walker
    I've learned recently that the way that I connect to God, a way that I communicate with God and that He communicates with me is through writing. Writing is how I connect to Jesus. Writing is how I worship Jesus. I am so glad that we are all capable and able of having a really special relationship with Jesus and that we can worship Him in different ways.
    At times its difficult because my connection with God is writing which means that I've gotta have my journal and my pen around a highlighter and I think its got to be quiet wherever I am....but in reality I the way in which I connect to Jesus really makes me slow down. Its a very quiet and peaceful form of worship in which for as long as I have a pen in my hand the world around me stops and I can totally hone into the writing and Jesus ministering and speaking His truth into my heart and life. I love that we can ask Him to meet us where we are to have quiet times and to worship Him. I can ask Him to help me focus on Him, His beauty, and His words no matter where I am and He will do it. The distractions fade away, the noises around me somehow subside and I am able to have beautiful sweet time with my daddy and I love that.
     Having consistent quiet times are often such a struggle and at times I feel frustrated to be honest, that I have to write everything out. Jesus revealed to me a couple of weeks ago that in my life, if I dont write it out, I have not surrendered it. I felt a strong impression on my heart, "You're not free until you tell me."  I communicate with the Jesus through writing and if I have not written it down and told Jesus than I'm not free, I am in bondage, I am holding suitcases that I was never meant to carry.