When I was getting ready to leave Encounter, the winter conference held by Campus Crusade for Christ, I was anxious and scared, ready to go home and yet uneasy. Mixed emotions would be the best way to describe my demeanor. I was ready to start over, to in a way start over with the relationships that I was a part of and ready to view my day, life, others, and the Lord in a completely different manner.
During Encounter the speakers told us about the perspective, and focus we should have, and I was convicted. I have been very, very selfish this semester as a new college student. I think, well, I'll admit that I was walking around a little straighter, my mentality was something like this: "Oh look, Bev is in college, nice. this is good. I was walking around, but not noticing that I was in my own little world, the world that revolved around, me. Yeah. That focus, was selfish, that focus, was not on others. A lot of times I get caught up in what am I going to do in the future? Future sometimes meaning major, what am I doing later today with my friends, and basically, what am I doing in the future that will benefit... Bevy.
The Lord convicted me BIG time and I am so grateful that He spoke to me about my focus. I am working on, putting into practice, having a different perspective on life, that I believe must first begin as a day by day conscious effort. I am working on, having an eternal perspective. Looking at others, and how I can show Christs' love for them and building relationships that may one day, Lord willing, give me the opportunity to share the HOPE that I have IN CHRIST. My step dad has told me many times that when we arrive in Heaven the only two things we will have is our salvation and the relationships we have with other people. I believe the Lord built us for relationships, because He wants to have a relationships with each and everyone of us.
Tomorrow is my first day of the second semester of my freshman year of college and I want to be focused on the eternal perspective. I will be praying that the Lord will help me and that the Holy Spirit will nudge me when I need to adjust my heart, attitude, and eyes.
Here is a song that reminds me to have an eternal perspective. My own little world by Matthew West
Close to a month for Christmas break was spent resting, but not spent well. Time wasted watching television and surfing the web overwhelms me and makes me a bit squeamish. Precious time slipped through my fingers. Life and purpose exists beyond what I fix my eyes upon. 
During Encounter the speakers told us about the perspective, and focus we should have, and I was convicted. I have been very, very selfish this semester as a new college student. I think, well, I'll admit that I was walking around a little straighter, my mentality was something like this: "Oh look, Bev is in college, nice. this is good. I was walking around, but not noticing that I was in my own little world, the world that revolved around, me. Yeah. That focus, was selfish, that focus, was not on others. A lot of times I get caught up in what am I going to do in the future? Future sometimes meaning major, what am I doing later today with my friends, and basically, what am I doing in the future that will benefit... Bevy.