It is crazy to think about how ridiculous I act when I am trying to figure out what to do about something. I always try to get all the details and plan and think about things, and I run frantically. And later, not before, later after I've thought about something and I get all flustered about making a decision I decide to pray. Praying about every decision should be my first thought not my last. And its ridiculous how I get all worked up and then I give things to the Lord, acting as if I could handle them all myself, what a crazy thought.
When I was trying to decide whether to go on a summer project, where, and if I should apply I started off by praying about it and I got this uncertain feeling about whether I should aply or not, I was uncertain because the Lord was not answering my prayer yet. I gave my summer to Him and asked Him to confirm whether He wanted me to go on a summer project with Campus Crusade this summer, by allowing me to get accepted. I truly surrendered it to the Lord, but I was a little anxious during the final days before I was supposed to find out if I was selected. I was selected for the trip three days after the deadline, but that was okay. The Lord wanted to tell me in His timing, His, not mine. I truly was perfect timing and I believe that He wanted me to trust Him in whatever the outcome was, because I had surrendered it to Him.
Its so interesting to think about how I felt the second after Dawn told me that I had been selected to be a part of the Santa Cruz, California 2011 summer project. I said, "yes, awesome,: I did not scream, but I was really excited and in that moment I felt this "yeah, okay" moment. Its like everything stops and all the noise of the world fades and I quietly say to myself, "yeah, okay."I can't wait to experience these moments through out my life because they are precious. I can't describe it, but those are the two words that I say, think to myself when the Lord's plans are revealed to me and His peace falls over me and I am left speechless.
